MY OTHER XANGA's at xanga.com/diet_coke_of_evil. im no longer using this one.

im so tired of missing everyone.. yet im still wishing for something that has already taken a thousand steps away from coming true..

i feel like im undergoing some sort of phase right now. this won't take long though. i'll be fine, i just need TIME to think things over.. swallow + puke til the bottom's dry and the whole thing's empty.. then can i finally move the hell on.

hold me up against your self-made image of my life in your eyes and cut away the parts that don't fit with your design. reduce me to a wasted reflection of other's opinions and misconceptions. you never took the time to say a word to me. degradation by assumption, talking shit with every breath. you don't know me, you don't know a thing about me. light a match for every lie, i hope you burn yourself to death! you don't know me, you don't know a thing. just a name and a face, rumour fabricates the rest. you judge me but you won't look me in the eye. it builds you up to tear me down, so spread the word and pass it on. you're the orator of shit-talking without a clue. i never wanted any more than i could fit into my heart, but you'd take everything i love. i never asked for anything i wouldn't fight for, but you cry like i begged for the world. well i am sick of explaining and i am through caring. i'll shrug my shoulders and walk away, so you can stab me in the back with eyes like knives and twist the blade with words so fine. hate me for all your life's worth, you don't know shit about mine!